A day Trip with ET

Life is always busy busy busy. It seemed what is in my mind is only work work and work.

Exhausted of this kind of life, so I decided to do something "Siao" again this time.

Dated this fellow EvonT to go to Sekinchan and our actual plan is to see sunrise as well as shoot like those Sunny, Flowerish , Happy Happy, Lovely type of pictures.

However, it turned up become like this.

It is a result of not doing homework before we go to Sekinchan, as it is their planting season,
which new seeds are planted and if you would like to take pictures with yellow gold paddy field, you might need to go there around June or November. I guess.

Pictures are satisfying so far. And if that day do have blue sky , the effect will be better.





Wish to go again. Maybe this time bring some ballons , scarfs and flowerish cap.

Anyone interested to be my next model?

Diary of cancer 9

It has been a period of time after the Operation.

Life of my dad still good so far. With high fibre and rich vitamin gruel as breakfast, fruits as dessert, multiple colours steam vegetable as lunch and finally protein drinks and fruits as dinner.

What i can say is what he had now is the best of the best, like King, I can say.

However , things changed after operation.

What he did is totally like a child. He wants for attention.
He went to neighbour house and do not want go back even late night.
He keeps went to toilet .
He opens light to sleep.
He need accompany even to nearest grocery shop.
He trusts a simple sticker and heal his body.

Sometime, i also dont know what to say. The fear to die will change someone?
or he do not have the courage to survive?

Diary of cancer 8

HORRAY!!!!

The operation done smoothly!

But the damn hell nurse freaked us out.

I think every nurses and doctor should study abit on psychology, as they can use the knowledge on how to communicate with patient family and patient itself.

Try to imagine if the nurse suddenly call you and ask you faster come to hospital as doctor has very important thing to talk to you.

Just because of the style of communicating, the nurse made us cry like baby and walk like sotong ,like zombie having a motor behind to FORCE you run faster with your sotong leg.


When we arrived at the operation room, the truth we know is that doctor is smiling at us as the operation runs smoothly and would like to show us the colon tumor.

I just can say it is totally like 豬腸 and you never dare to eat Bak Kut Teh again.

Diary of Cancer 7

Tommorow 21/1 will be the operation day.


The intense feeling can be sense from his eyes.

He pretend to "flirt" with the nurses, but the actual feeling that hidden, who will know?

We all included my uncle visited him tonight and share the night with him


Dad, just wanna tell you , you are not alone. We all love you forever.

Before leave the ward, my mum suggest a group praying. By holding everyone hands and pray.

Wish he will over the operation and live ever after.

Diary of Cancer 6

So the problem come now.


Private --30k mininum--operation after 2 days

Government----5k----operation after 5 days


Who one you choose?

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The night before the decison is made is pretty awesome.

Your house will be as noisy as possible and many people will come your house for visiting.

What i meant is, it is good if there are some relatives and friends come for visit and encourage my dad.


However, it is not.

All i saw is a bunch of people keep introducing us what super powder or super drink, which can anti cancer, or what insurance policy to sell to my mum and me myself.

The super drink or powder, it is hell pricy!!

If you were me, will you go for those super thing?

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Diary of Cancer 5

The thing I most hate and fuxkingly hate this year is something come out from the Doctor.

Yes indeed.

My dad is diagnosed with Colon Cancer－直肠癌.--either stage 2 and stage 3 .

If it is spread out to other organ such as liver-->stage 4, it will be very hard to be cure and survival rate is only 5%.


The doctor also playing the video that he captured in my dad colon and the face of the ugly tumor.

It is fermenting.
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Before I know the news, i not even looking at my dad eyes. I keep avoid the eye contact.

It is because I know my tears will burst out once i see his eyes. The sorrow and the man who work so hard behind us, may have the chance to leave us soon and maybe very very soon.


You will no longer touch his rough and sandy hand or the food he brought to you even it is raining outside.

To be exact, the unconditioned love that he gave, will put a full stop by somehow, and nowhere.

For you all out there, try to search the last picture you took with your family, do you know the date?

It might be the last picture you took and no more next picture forever.

Diary of Cancer 4

ＭＥＳＳＹ！

is the only thing i could say.

We dont know what to do, where to go and how to do.

Since this is so unexpected case, the best way to know the truth is go check with doctor.

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When i am working and busying answering my customer call in office, suddenly my phone rang.

My heart stop pumping around 3 seconds looking at my phone.

When i am awake, i found out i have missed my mum call and my hand is holding another phone( office phone) and my customer is talking at the end and i keep silent.

I simply answer the customer questions and shut the call, which i dont know what i said to him.

I took a breath, and call back my mum.

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From the another end of the call, my tears burst out. As you will hardly see me cry. My tears is rolling in my eyes. I know i could not bear anymore. Before my tears drop and before everyone in. my office see it, i pased my phone to my manager as i need need urgently go to hospital.

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My nose turns sour and watery eyes are the thing i have when i walked down the street.

Soul-less